Getting Outside My Head

Tomorrow we leave for our Disney Cruise!

We are going to Key West, Grand Cayman, Cozumel and Casaway Cay(Disney Private Island) for SEVEN...yes 7 nights!!!

Molly is so excited she can barely sleep. I have to do all the packing tonight but I am starting to get excited. I am just to ready to away for a week with no computer!!! No work!!!

We are going with two families. I look forward to dinner time with the group but in the afternoon spend time with Molly and a bit of alone time.

This year has been crazy...the past month emotionally draining...the past week...complete exhaustion from all the drama...I am so ready for this time! Yay...it is here!

And even better...just checked on the flight...they bumped us to business class! Yay!!!

The cruise was great!!! I actually loved it and can't wait to go again.

M had a blast. She felt like a princess the entire week!

It was worth every penny...wish J could have been with us though. Next time hopefully he will.

I still keep up hope and stay positive!

Anyway...we are back and miss the ship already!

I think this sounds like me...

I am starting to be happy. Looking forward to the future and .....SLAP!

OF course....it always happens. Been fighting for something for so long and for the first time it is within reach....then something changes so much that after everything we have been through I have to say Deal Breaker.

After all the crap ...after all the tears...after all the laughter...I want to be able to say I am okay with that decision but I am not. I am afraid I would resent that person. I can't believe this...

I really live in a dream world and just hit reality again....it sucks trust me.