Getting Outside My Head

I have started to post several times but been interrupted each time.

Well....I got my vehicle. I LOVE my vehicle...but still shocked at what I got. Another Ford. Yep....I know I have said in the past that I hate Ford...and the only reason I was driving one was because my dad pretty much gave it to me....but I LOVE my Explorer XLT.

I drove every SUV within my budget...never found anything I liked. Saw a leader ad in the paper but thought why not try so that I know I looked at my options. As soon as I drove it I knew I had found my home. It was truck month so I got a huge rebate. I was able to get a vechicle that I could not afford at all. I got the price and pymt and I wanted to I am happy plus a few extras free.

Don't care how much they made, cause they always do, just happy with my price. My old was a 99 Limited that had everything...so there was no way that I could afford that but I was able to get many of the extras I love.

And...as soon as Molly got in she said, "This is the one Mommy...I want this one!". She got it!

Yay...no more vehicle shopping and I am happy!

Last Sunday M woke up screaming in pain and doubled up. I mean screaming! Nothing and no one could console her. She would scream for about 30mins or so and pass out and then wake up screaming again. It was horrible and confusing. She had no fever and had not eaten anything new. This went on through most of the night. That morning I let her sleep in and J was going to take her to school if she was feeling better since she still did not have a fever. I went to the office. Got a call at 9:00 and she was awake and crying again saying her tummy hurt. Her left side and she could not walk it hurt so bad.

Got in the car and on the way J called to say she had started throwing up. The Dr's office said I could bring her in at 1:45!! Uh...No...we were going to the hospital. They called back and we took her straight to her Dr.

At first they thought it was Strep but nope that came back negative. Then they thought it was something else..that came back negative. Then...they wanted a urine sample. Pretty much they felt like it was appendicitis!

I was so upset..crying but trying not to let M see me at all. She was in my lap. M could not go peepee so they said to go home and they would call in a couple of hours and see how she was doing and decide then if we needed to go to Children's Hospital. I was so scared!!! M finally gave a sample and went home.

She did not throw up again so that was good. They had said if she did to take her immediately. Right after the Dr called M went to the bathroom and had diarrhea. Good sign! If you have appendicites you can not go to the bathroom.

I have never been so happy for my girl to have the runs! :) By that evening she was feeling much better. Dr said it must have been a horrible stomach virus. All I know is I never want my baby screaming in pain like that again...it was horrible to watch and know there was nothing I could do.

All is better now though. She feels great! I was one long week!

We were trying to go to Israel for two weeks in May with our church; however, J's condo has not sold so we are not going.

He was treating us to the trip(I can't afford it) if his condo sold. I thought it would be an incredible once in a lifetime trip...but I was also very scared at the same time. I would love to visit all the place you read about in the bible...but with all that is going on over there I was more than worried. But worry not more because we are not going. :(

We are going to visit his parents in Indiana instead. Cheap and fun. I really enjoyed his family and this way they get to spend more time with Molly as well. We might even hop over to Vegas for a few days. All depends on how money.

I look forward to having two weeks off. I am sure I will not want to come back. I have so much vacation time though and I do not want to lose it so..two weeks here I come.

Okay...the job is better but still have to work Saturday's at quarter end. Worked last Saturday, working today...etc.

This morning my baby cried that I had to leave and said "Mommies are not supposed to work on Saturdays they are supposed to play". It broke my heart. She asked "Why does Howard always want you to work?..I want you to stay with me". She even said she did not want to go have fun J she just wanted me to stay with her.

Ouch! It really hurt. I miss my baby girl.

My baby is growing up too fast!

She is getting to the weight limit on her car seat. :( I want her to stay in the car seat but it is not safe. She will now have to move to the booster seat. I am sure I will shed tears when we adjust her car seat down to the booster.

And J is looking at getting M into a charter school. There is a long waiting list she would have to wait till about 1st or 2nd grade but since he knows the people she will probably bypass the list. She could start as early as next year depending on her testing. Booster seat...school......I want my baby back.

She is great at this age...but so independant it is unreal. I want to wrap her up in a blankie and snuggle and listen to her baby noises.... Too fast...

This has been a long and horrible week. I am trying to look at it this way...it could be much much worse. Others have had worse weeks than this so I should not whine.

But goodness....what a week at the office. Horrible is the only way to describe it. Jason has been great though. He took M to school and picked her up most of this week so I could stay late. He listened and supported me. His best line was.."hey you could always stay home and have a baby". OKAY!!!

I am better at trying to focus on my family but it has been hard. I have always been to take things home with me. I am glad the week is over and REFUSE to work this weekend!

J has something planned for us tonight and tomorrow and I am going! It is a complete surprise and J always has great surprises!

The surprise was that his father was in town.

He picked up Molly from school and I went to his place after work on Friday. As I was putting Molly in the SUV, I heard a voice and turned to find his Dad standing behind me.

It was a great surprise. Not what I thought but still great. I really like his family and M really loves them as well. Then we went to Nate's for crawfish. Yum! They were a good size even...not small. I was really excited about that...we have been wanting to have crawfish but it has been to high and the crawfish small. These were perfect!

We all stayed at the condo, went to lunch the next day and then took his Dad to the airport.

It was fun.