Getting Outside My Head

Things are better..not great but better.

Molly is doing okay since her ordeal at school. Nightmares have stopped but I am having a little trouble with her behavior. Someone at her school called CPS so they investigated the school and spoke to me. They are going to cite the school so it is on their record and others can few it from a website.

I think I am going to put her in the other school and just hope I can make ends meet every month. I am a nervous wreck when she is there now.

J and I are talking and spending time. Not sure what will happen. It is extremely hard but I think it is the right thing to do at the moment.

Still working every weekend. I hope it stops this month. I feel like I never get to see my daughter.

Things will slow down soon...they have too. I am just happy that things are better than two weeks ago. :)

Happy Birthday C.

M starts a new school tomorrow. This school is extremely nice and had a great track record with teachers and is well known where I live. They accept children at the age of 18 months. I really can not afford the school but when she turns 2 the tution drops and then it becomes more affordable. It will be a difficult three months but I am sure well worth it.

The other school was an acredited school that taught up to 1st grade but this school is a private school through 5th. 1st - 5th have uniforms. They are really cute.

M spent last Tuesday there and loved it! I was impressed with the teacher as well as the children. Two of M's classmates may move over to this school as well. I would be thrilled if that happened!!

Well...tomorrow is her first day..again. I am sad to leave certain people but this is the best thing for M. She is bored at her other school and this one really stimulates her.

Have a good day sweetie!

Molly loves her new school!! She is happy when I pick her up and take her home. When I drop her off she says good morning to EVERYONE and then kisses me and waves good-bye. She is ready for me to leave after she walks into her classroom. She loves her teacher as well and her teacher loves her. She has become the class fav again. When I pick M up I never know what her hair will look like. Her teacher puts it in pony tails everyday after nap. The first day she had two on top of her head. They stand straight up about 5 inches. She kept saying "I cool!". It was great. Tues - three pony tails...Wedn...four and yesterday one. She is so happy and that makes me happy!!

On a down note though...J and I have tried over the past month but it looks like things are not going to work out. I am extremely sad about this and what is worse is how it is affecting M. She has not seen him for about two weeks now. He has been sitting for me on Saturdays while I work and M apparently got used to it. All day last Saturday she asked for him. ALL DAY! I felt so bad for her. She is still asking for him. I hope this goes away soon. I know she misses him so much. She only wants to watch the movies and play with things he bought for her. It is amazing that she knows the difference in the toys and movies but she does because she tells me who gave then to her.

Over all though...M is happy and that is all that matters. I am so glad I moved her to the new school!!!