Getting Outside My Head

I am actually dating someone. How weird is that!!!

We went to his best friend's house to watch the big game last night...as a couple. It was a first for me ....and ya know what...it was pretty darn nice.

What made me even more nervous was that Molly went with us. The first outing with the three of us. He actually helped me with Molly. I would get up to go after her and he would tell me to sit down he would get her. How nice is that?! At one point I was teasing and said "Your turn"(to go get her) and then I got up and he said.."No, it is my turn..relax and enjoy the game".

:)

I am off to Shreveport with my friend Vicki for some good ol gambling. I am really missing Vegas. I am going to have to make a trip up that way this year.

I look foward to my little over night get a way(Saturday and Sunday) but ya know I have a strange thing going on with me....I am already missing someone. How STRANGE is that!! It normally does not happen to me. I know I will have a great time and really need to have a girl's night but I do wish he was going with me.... maybe next time. I will see him tonight...that will be enough right??

:)

My father and step-mom are coming in town to stay with Molly. They will have a blast. I think they are going to shop all day Saturday. They will be so surprised to see how much she has grown and learned. She has Mom....Mom....Mom....MOMMY! down! ..lol..

Have a safe and great weekend!

Okay.....so I had a guest over Friday night and he left about 3 to 4 minutes before my parents got there!!! Too close for call to me but it worked out.

Vicki and I headed out around 11:00 for Shreveport. We were at the table by about 2:30. Vicki never moved! I played and played...really could not win so I moved over to craps. Could not win there...moved over to roulette..could not win there so I had a drink and chatted a while. Then went back to the table Vicki was out. Played more and still could not win. Now I am down....down more than I would have liked to have been. I bust out and Vicki pushes over a $100 of her money. After that it was like a movie...I could not lose!

The table was a blast. Fun dealers fun people. I got hit on by many men...that is always fun. After a while the table started to change. I still had a huge stack of black choips($100s) and my empire of greens($25s) was going down. I decided to go to bed..thinking it is probably about 11:00 or 12:00..I'll go to bed and get some rest. When I asked what time it was....5:35AM!!!!! I was shocked!!!! We were up by 9:00...I was still drunk!!! I switched to coffee at some point in the night but of course it had Bailey's in it so it was not exactly the best way to go.

I was hung over the entire trip back home.

Dad and Marla decided to take Molly with them so I have a few nights without her. I missed her pretty bad last night.

Hope everyone had a great weekend...I know I did!!

I cut my hair. It reminds me of the movie $teel Magnolias when the Julia Robert$ character goes from long long to short short...well that is me...but with an in style short cut.

It will take me a little time to get used to it. I liked my long hair even though others did not. My new friend wanted me to take it shorter and I was ready for a change so I let me hair dresser do what she wanted. She put a great deal of blonde high lights as well so it really is different. He says he loves it so really that is all that matters to me.

I am trying to think of someone to compare but I am drawing a blank right now. Camille, it is about what your length was at my 30th birthday! Short and layerd all over with a razor cut on the ends. The longest length touchs my collar.

WoW...am I shocking people this morning! :) Short and sassy!!

When someone is upset with you or something...don't you wanna know???

I do! I am trying to compromise and let things go but it is really hard. If someone says.."No..they are not okay" and "It has not been a good morning"...and you left them that morning only a few hours before...don't you wanna know what is up????

I was told not to worry about it everything is okay....but I still want to know! It is driving me nuts....URGH! And it will NEVER find out!

My friend went out of town this morning to take care of family business. He will not be back until Sunday. At first I was sad because it was Valentine's weekend and then yesterday I started thinking it was probably a needed break. We have spent so much time together lately. But today...I miss him.

He came by last night and left late instead of staying over...he had a 6:50am flight. I felt the emotion from him as well as me, so I was sad this morning. It will be strange not to see him today and tomorrow.

I hope everything goes well for his family this weekend. I wish I could help.

All the these new emotions....I feel like a teenager. :) I just can't get enough of his touch.

I just received beautiful tulips for Valentine's Day!!!!!!

I am sooo excited and happy!!! I love them...they are gorgeous!!!

Camille and Josh are moving into thier home today.

I pray that all goes well.

I am so excited for them!!! I am going over tomorrow to help unpack, run errands anything they need.

Good moving guys!!!!!

I have just received flowers AGAIN!!!

A dozen assorted roses. The colors are absolutely beautiful!!! It is a huge arrangement. I love them!!!

He is so sweet....I am at a loss for words. WoW...

Double WoW......ahhhh

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Okay..I can not stop smiling. Happy....is a great feeling. I can't wait to see him Sunday!!

Molly and I had a great weekend. Hung out Friday evening and awoke to a beautiful winter wonderland. We played in the snow all morning. It was great! Molly loved the snow!!

Then in the afternoon we went to Camille's. Loved her new home and Molly was more than happy to hang with Aunt Mille. That evening we went to dinner with Camille, Josh, K and M. We had a great dinner and one of the best margaritas I have ever had!! I think Molly has a crush on K. She was flirting with him across the table all night long. Watch out M!

Sunday I picked my friend up at the airport in the morning. We all spent the day together and then that evening he took us to Chuck E. Chee$e. It was a blast. Molly had the best time and he was great with her. I let my guard down some and let him hold her and play with her. We had our pics taken..it was fun. Of course he thought he could beat me at skee ball and he was oh so WRONG! That was really cool!

So...we had a wonderful weekend.

At home with my girl today. Just a cold I think. She is running a fever with it and Dr says it is going around so to just ride it out.

I have done some work from home. I hate missing work but what can I do.

Hope everyone is having a good day.

You have been on my mind a great deal lately.

I am still upset about the past but do hope all is well with you.

I have been reading a good part of the day. I have really missed keeping up with my blog and reading others.

I need to get back to this and have a more interesting tone. I think I will branch out a little. Hopefully I will stick to it and update more often.

Molly is still ill. If she still has a fever in the morning it will be three days off work for a total of 8 days out of the office this year.

I realize how bad that number looks. I hate that number but what else can I do. I am the ONLY one taking care of her. I do ask my parents for help...often but my step-mother has an illness that prevents her from being around Molly when she has a fever and my dad goes to the auctions...which is a job.

I like my job these days. Not sure what will happen in the future though. Whenever I am out I do work from home. I have my brother baby sit when he can so I can work late. I make every effort to be at the office.

I hate that I feel like I am letting the "company" down because I have to take care of her. I hate that I feel guilty because I am at home with her. I need my job but she is my daughter.

I hope things work out. More so I hope my baby feels better soon.

Molly has her first ear infection. It is just a mild case but still her first. :(

So yes..that means I am still at home!!! The Dr assured me that I did the right thing. I know I did it is just hard to deal with the office as well.

Anyway..now she has meds...yes med(s) because hre asthma is much worse as well. So once I get some meds in her she should be feeling better soon!

It is a beautiful day. I would love to take Molly to the park but not sure if I should or not. I may just let her play outside for a little while so she can play with her ride toy she got for Christmas.

I have to get some work done today. I have been so exhausted that I have not accomplished much on the work that was brought home to me. Molly hates it when I am at the computer so it is not an easy task.

My friend is at home today doing chores. Laundry..cleaning..etc. He is never there so I am sure it has built up. I am the worst at communication so I think I just irritated him a bit. I am working at that skill but I really suck. Part of me is so attached that I am worried that I am smothering him and the other part of me is affraid I am pushing him away with my words. Relationship stuff....it is not all the easy for me. I keep forgetting he has not known me for 20 years.

Well...Molly is finished with lunch gotta run. Have a great day!

Okay..the Quizno$ commercial totally freaks me out. I can not watch it. It grosses me out..the animal looks like a rat with radiation damage.

I tried that establishment for the first time several weeks ago on the urging of the new friend. I liked it..really enjoyed it actually. But now, after the commerical, I have no intention of going back. It is so scary to me.

My friend thinks my fear of this commercial is absolutley hilalrious. I understand but man.... is that one scary animal.

Have you seen the commercial in question? If so, please give me your thoughts.

See a penny pick it up and all day long you will have good luck.

See a penny and DO NOT pick it up and all day long your day will be $hitty!

Next time I am picking up that darn penny!!! I saw it and kept walking yesterday morning....NEVER AGAIN!

The day ended better but it was one hell of a long day. Thanks Camille for listening.

Borrowed this from Camille.

I am 85% Dixie! I love this quiz...too cute.

I would love to see your results!