Getting Outside My Head

Molly stood up all by herself last night! She has been pulling up and walking along side the couch...that kind of stuff but she is always holding on. But last night she pushed her bottom up with her hands on the ground(butt up in the air) and normally at this point she will grab something and pull up or just sit back down. This time though she just stood up! She lifited her hands off the ground and stood up...she looked around and smiled at her cousin and then when I got excited she realized she was standing all by herself and fell down.

She is growing up so fast!! At school yesterday they asked me to bring tennis shoes or sandles that stayed on well because she is trying to climb on all the big kids toys and keeps slipping. The BIG KID Toys!!!! So today she is sporting a pair of pink WeeBoks!! They are so cute!

She will be walking in no time! Watch out Camille you will have your hands full Saturday afternoon!

I am done with month end! I finished at noon today and just printed out the last reports! I am closed!

How great is that!!! Yay!!!

By the way...what the hell does "cool beans" really mean? Where did it come from? Why do I say it.....Hmmmmm :)

Thanks Camille!!

We went shopping Saturday and found some great deals! Molly was wonderful the entire time. She just sat back and checked everyone out.

It was no nice to go shopping with a girl friend and try on clothes and ACTUALLY like them to boot! And I gotta tell ya, Camille is one hot chick! She was stylin!

Molly rolled out with the biggest load out of the three of us..the way it should be. :) Her Aunt Mille got her the cutest outfits!!!!

She just loves her Aunt Mille so much. Aunt Mille is more like a second mommy than Aunt. Molly is so comfortable with her and just lights up when Camille is in the room.

So, shopping was a success!

I had a great time. I was sporting a new hair do, cute clothes and a great friend. It was wonderful.

Camille and I went to dinner at a chic little restaurant and then off to a little bar for drinks. It felt great to feel like me again. I even teared up at one point. The food was great and atmosphere supurb...I really enjoyed the evening with my best friend. Even though it was not her scene....you never would have known it. Camille is the best.

I was given a gift that is so special and important to me that I am not sure if I want to share it with you. It meant more to me than I am sure I expressed. Thank you so much Camille. I hold you in the same regard. No one has ever shown me the respect and love that I have found in you. I am proud and honored to have you in my life and more so in Molly's life.

Thanks again for a great evening.

Today is my birthday. Usually I would not say anything but for the first time I am really happy about my birthday. August 5, 19** is the reason I have my Molly. If I would not have been born on this day then I would have never had the love of my life, Molly.

So, Happy Birthday to me!

It was so difficult to leave her this morning. I want her with me all day today. I even cried as I left day care. To me this is her day not my day ....or maybe OUR day.

Hope everyone has a Great Day!!!! :)

Dinner was wonderful! I spent my birth day with the people that are extremely special to me in my life. Sitting at the table with these wonderful people and Molly felt like home. A home I have never known before. One where I am completely comfortable, not on guard, trust everyone and most importantly love everyone and the feeling was mutual!

Thanks so much to Camille, Josh and Carla. I am a better person for knowing you. And Molly will be a better person for having such great influences in her life.

"Molly, your mommy is gettin on to Uncle Josh...he's in trouble"

It cracks me up the more I think about. I am such a mom!

Josh was going to let Molly play with a knife at the table. He said it was not sharp so it was ok, it would not hurt her. I had to explain that since she was a baby she has BABY SOFT skin and it could cut her, let alone she does not need to think it is ok to play with knives. At the time I did not realize I had the mommy tone working....I just remember Camille saying that line(or something like it). Later he was going to let her play with a fork. He was too funny.

He finally said.."I guess I am not very good with kids". Poor Josh....he is great with kids but he will learn real fast what they can and can not play with.

Josh was hilarious last night!!!

Molly caught a stomach virus Wed night. Poor girl could not keep anything down or in her body for about twenty four hours. I felt so bad for her. THEN....

Mommy caught it too!! She was better and I was awful. Aunt Mille to the rescue again.

Camille is the best. She came over yesterday morning and took Molly to school for me. I feel much better today just tired.

Thanks again Camille.

Watch out for this virus....it is pure hell!!

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Molly and I have just hung out today. I am still feeling a little uneasy so we(or I) are taking it slow.

We took nap together late this afternoon. Molly slept on my chest, it was so sweet. She sleeps and naps in her own bed so this was a special moment for us. She is such a precious little girl.

Watched Noggin tv most of the day. Kids shows that Molly seemed to like. Guess I need to tune in more often. They were actually pretty good.

Well..it is almost bath time. Gotta wash the little girl up and then off to bed.

I have so much going on right now. I am not unhappy at all, I am very happy. However, I am just so overwhelmed right now personally, professionally and financially. I just keep telling myself......"this to shall pass".

Molly is my saving grace though. When I am with her everything else goes away. I love my girl so much. She was such a giggle box last night. It was great!

It is becoming extremely difficult to be away from her. I wish I could stay home and take care of my daughter....that is the way it should be. Maybe one day that will be a possibility. I feel like her life is passing me by.

Interesting story.

How come mine had to be middle class???!!!!

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I need a cleaning person. I really do. I hate to clean and I am not good at it either. I am a clutter person. Most say a person will grow out of this but I am thinking it is not happening with me. I hate the clutter but yet it still grows.

I have to clean tonight since my father is coming into town. I feel much better after it is done but getting started is such a chore. Sometimes I do not even know where to start. I am not organized at all.

I think I am going to have to spring and have someone come in once a month. I can't afford weekly...I don't know..I need to price it out.

Calgone take me away!!!

There are many things that cause me to get upset with Molly's father and this is one of them. I have to leave early today and drive across town to take her to the doctor. He lives 2 seconds from the doctor's office and about 15 minutes from daycare! It would be such a help and so easy for him to take care of this today. But no, he is an ass. No, I have not asked him because he is not part of Molly's life. Even if I did call and he said yes, I would not let him because she does not know him. But it still frustrates me that he is not involved.

Don't get me wrong I am not upset that I have to take care of my daughter. It is just that I always have to call in or take off early and I do not want to jeopardize my position. It would just help if he was involved and would help out from time to time. I know it is wishful thinking.

Ok....feeling much better now. Just needed to vent. And ya know...if I had help I would probably neve take it from him. Guess sometimes I just need to bitch.

I have no idea what that means...just felt like saying it.

Happy Birthday Josh!!!

I wish you the best for the year to come!

Look out though.....thirty is creeping up on you!

:)

Molly has been in a walker for a long time now. Once she is in she will walk it all around the kitchen floor. Last night though she pulled up on it from the outside and pushed it all around.

She was so thrilled with herself! Guess it is time to get one of the toys that they hold on to and push. I am sure she needed it along time ago but she only has small area in the kitchen to push things on so she does not do that too much. I am sure if I ask daycare they will tell me she has been doing it for a while.

My little girl is growing up.

YOU ARE MOLY


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Ok...so I guess I am into all this stuff today.

Molly and I went to a friend's house Saturday. A few others were there as well and we hung out in the pool all day. It was wonderful. Molly had a great time.

Everyone was amazed at my little swimmer. All she wanted to do was swim by herself. She did not want to be held and did not want the floatie. She loved going under the water. I know she wants me to let go but I just can not do it.

We stayed after everyone left...but had to leave a earlier than planned due to Molly and her temper. She had refused to nap all day and this tired little girl started throwing a tantrum when she did not get her way. So, off we went.

The day as a whole was great though. Molly played and laughed so hard! I was exhausted Sunday. Molly was just fine though. :)

Okay...I do not care for shopping. I am a girly girl that does not like to shop for myself; however, I am in the mood to shop for me! I do not have the money to spend but I sure wish I did. Control....I need control.

Ok, I signed Molly up for a college fund today. It will be tough to swing the payments but I know it is in her best interest to come up with the money. I do not want her to worry about how to pay for college the way I had to.

So....Molly you ARE going to college. :)

Yesterday was a nightmare.

In the morning I noticed Molly had two red marks on her scalp. They looked like scratches so I did not worry about them. I lotioned her up and got her dressed and off we went. When I arrived at day care the morning teacher was off and the afternoon teacher was in her place. This is the woman that Molly loves but she gets into everybodies business and feels the need to lecture moms on everything. Well, she said it looked like ringworm. I was extremely upset about this. She stated Molly must of got it somewhere else and I stated it was not possible due to the fact that Molly only goes from home to school. From there it just got worse. At one point I had to tell her to basically stop talking to me.

I was crying when I left for many reasons. One being that I do not want Molly in day care I want her with me. I returned later to take Molly to the doctor. Now I was thinking maybe it was ezcema, not ringworm. The teacher was ok but still pissed me off.

The results from the doctor....SCRATCHES!!! So, I was correct all along. I just should have stood my ground. My instincts always seem to be right when it comes to Molly.

I want her out of day care! I want to be home with her. I am so upset. In two months she moves to another room and I am not happy about that. I am not comfortable with those teachers. I have been looking at other day cares and they are all about $250 more a month.

Hopefully, one of the home cares will have an opening soon. I hate to move her but I really do not have a choice. I just feel like crying. I want the best for her and that would mean staying home with her. It is the hardest thing I have ever done....leaving her at a day care. It just crushes me. She loves it so I try to keep that in mind.

Okay....that is my vent. A much calmer vent than it was yesterday.