Getting Outside My Head

Ok, thanks to Camille I finally purchased maternity clothes that fit. Thanks bunches!

I did get attention walking into the building. Mostly men...zeroing in my chest..then quickly to my stomach..then back to my chest! Men crack me up!

Thanks again Camille. Oh and by the way...my new bra feels SOOOO GGOODD!

Appt this morning went well. Have not gained any weight since last month but she said it was ok and to just keep trying to eat. She did measure my belly today though because she thought I looked as though I had not progressed enough. However, the measurement was fine. On the low end, but still the safe.

So, I would say I got a decent grade..maybe not an "A" but really was not expecting that.

Next appt will not be fun...it is when they test for diabetes and anemia. I know I am anemic...and the Dr. seems to think I will test positive for diabetes. Now, that does not sound like fun. Lets keep our fingers crossed that the tests come back Negative!!!

Well, I am about to leave the office and go home. I am so glad I do not have to work tomorrow..but I will be here Friday though. Not complaining..no big deal to me.

Sure wish I could Get Oustide my Head today. It would be nice. Way too many thoughts and issues going on up there. Hormones....I won't even start. I just feel like crawling in a hole and not coming back out until my life has changed for the better. I am sure this mood will pass...and I hope soon.

Hope everyone has a good 4th of July!

Ok...I need a computer at home. I would have stayed up as long as it took to blog about my day yesterday. I have to go to a meeting now..I'll blog later...

Sometimes being the only one sober can be ALOT of fun!

It is really hard to believe I am 6MONTHS pregnant today!!!

With no clothes on I feel really huge, but when I get dressed the belly kinda goes away. No one knew I was pregnant yesterday at this party I was at. Many people there I did not know, so when the subject came up..one of the women was telling me about clothes for when I get to 3 to 6 months...when I told her I was 6 months...they were shocked. But of course then they all smiled and at different times would tell me to brace myself because the big belly was coming and I would probably just wake up one morning with it. ..lol.. It was funny.

WoW...6 months...and hormones raging! :)

Ok..I saw this on Julie's site...I just love silly quizzes!

I am mostly Chocolate Chip...then even with Chocolate and Butter Pecan!

Thanks Julie!

What Kind of Ice Cream are You!

Yesterday I went to a party at my friend's brother's house. This is the family that drinks heavly when they get together..ok all the time.

They are the type of family that does not have confrontations at ALL! They just surpress or dismiss their emotions. Well, one of the sister-n-laws is not like that at all, actually she is just the opposite. She has been getting the raw end of the deal lately. One family memeber does not like her and he has been doing his best to paint a bad image of his sister-n-law to others including his mother. Well, it has worked with his mother pretty much.

After drinking continously for about 5 hours...it all exploded!

It started out with one of the brothers trying to get me into a conversation about gay couples having children(the family is EXTREMELY conservative, so when he gets drunk he thinks he can convince me his beliefs are right and mine are wrong). I stated clearly that I would not contribute to the converstation..his wife(the sister-n-law) has similar beliefs as I. So, she started in on him. One thing led to another and the next thing you know the mother is upset at something the sister-n-law has said and instead of saying it to her face she turns to her daughter and starts to bash the sister-n-law.

Sister-n-law had had enough...she lashed out at the mother-n-law. Loud and pointing fingers. It got way out of hand...oh and did I mention I am sitting between the two of them....oh yes, so I heard it all.

The daughter(my friend) finally partially stands up and insisits that that is enough and they need to stop...ok the sister-n-law needs to stop. The sister-n-law leaves the table to vent and the mother calls over the brother that does not like the sister-n-law(he was not present for the scene) and says "Your sister-n-law is over talking about your mother...do something about it"

So, then the daughter trys to explain to her mother that the two of them were talking about two different subjects and defends the sister-n-law as a good person that just got out of line.

I go into the house followed by my friend who takes me out front to discuss the event. I then precede to calm her down and out comes the sister-n-law. Man o Man..I was a busy girl! Now, I have to play mediator between the two. My friend demanded I do it..so I did. I calmed them both down so by the end they understood each other and were not upset.

Ok...I have no idea how long I was out there but by the time I went back in it was dark! The sister-n-law apologized to the mother-n-law, who was not all that willing to accept, but she did it anyway and would not enage in the argument again even though the mother-n-law was trying to take it there!

It ended ok..but I am sure they are all talking about it today. I have left out alot..but just think of a storm that has been building for years over a town that has NEVER seen rain. And it did not just sprinkle...IT POURED!

I think I got home around 10:30pm or 11:00! I was exhausted!!!!

What a LONG day!

Weekend was ok. Tried to shop for cribs Saturday, but was just so tired. Everything I liked was about $400 but at least they convert to a toddler bed and then double bed. Sunday...was not feeling well at so pretty much did not leave the couch.

My brother and his family came over Saturday night. My niece is almost 3 and nephew is almost 2. Deanna was crying that she wanted her Shelby...so my brother decided to come over. It was alot of fun. Deanna was so excited to see me! It was a great feeling. Shawn was all over the place. He is such a tough boy!

Hope everyone had a great weekend.

I had to go downstairs to the cafeteria to get some CHERRY CRISP! It is sooo good!

It is definitely a pregnant thing because I do not care for cherries all that much. But this stuff is wonderful!

I just love the cherries mixed in with all that crispy crust. Ok...gotta get back to snackin! :)

I have a meeting at 4:00 downstairs on the 23rd floor.

I am wearing one of the extremely cute outfits Camille picked out for me.(Thanks by the way...on my floor everyone just loves it!) So, the rest of the company will know for SURE that I am pregnant. A co-worker of mine wants to walk done with me just to watch people gasp! ..lol...

33 minutes and counting!

I crack myself up..I am sure this is only funny to me!...lol..

Did not see too many people yesterday. The ones I did see..just stared a little but did not say anything.

At least I am breathing a little easier now.

Ok, I am stuck thinking about somebody that I should not be. But it just amazes me that you can know someone for 19 years and really NOT know them at all.

How do they do that...how can they live with themselves...how can you deceive someone you say you cared about for 19 years!!

I just do not understand. Is this a trait just to men or do women do this too? As much as I did not trust him, I just never expected him to do this to me or anyone.

As much as it sucks I have to deal with the fact that he never cared about me, never loved me, was never my best friend and obvisouly will never be a father to his daughter.

19 years....

It really bothers me when people get on the elevator and then push the button that is already lit!!

I mean...it is not going to make the door close faster or the elevator move faster!!! I just want to say to them "Do you feel better now???? Do you really think that HELPS!!!!" "Because it DOES NOT MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!!!!!"

ok...I feel better now. :)

The buzz is on! People on the 23rd floor are talking. Someone has gone up to a friend of mine asking question and was extremely shocked. What I find humourus though is that he wondered why I did not tell him. This is someone I rarely deal with...people just do not know me here otherwise they would not be surprised I did not share.(I am EXTREMELY private)

Today was pizza day at the office. They provide but we on the 28th have to go down to 23. I got several BIG looks at my belly. All from men..who you could tell were surprised, but did not say a word. How funny....

You know they are buzzin now. :)

Yes, I am a loser, I watch Big Brother. I can't help it....these types of shows are playing to me. I am that viewer.

Camille and I are going to register for the Baby Shower tonight and I have to tell ya that it is killing me to miss the FIRST episode of BB3!

I am trying to tape it but I do not think it will work. I asked someone here at the office to tape if for me so I hope she remembers.

The people do not look as interesting as previous shows..but who knows. And this group is a bunch of single 20 somethings for the most part. One man is married and 51..then next age goes to 35 divorced with 5 kids. Only one other women is married.

Can't wait to watch! I am so addicted to TV.

Ok...just watched BB3 at lunch.

Amy.....can she get on your nerves just a little more!! She needs to stay though cause you know there are going to be some good drunk times ahead.

Josh...annoying as well. Keep him around for awhile but then he has to go! No money for him!!!

Eric is HOT!

Ok...that is all for now. I think it will be much better than I thought by looking at the bios.

Can't wait for tonight!

I think it is so amusing when others think they need to TELL you how to solve an issue at the office. You know the kinda...that just has to be involved with everything you do....

I do not need assitance, I know exactly what to do....I just sit and pretty much laugh at them. Last week I got anrgy this week...I am just laughing.

What would I do if they were not here to hold my hand???? I am so relieved that someone is here to tell me what to do step by step. ...lol....

Interesting that the people I am speaking of are men...and treat all women like this. It is amazing us women folk are able to get through life without a man.

Anyone know the best way to find information on the web about someone?

I am going thru a blue period right now. I really think it is hormones combined with my "half empty" status. I think this is normal because I have read that this is a time where you really have ups and downs and I would think with my situation it would be worse.

I am a constant worrier and not that postive when it comes to my life. Sometimes I just need to talk and have the other person tell me "everything will be ok".."everything will work out". Even if I discuss other options, I need the person to say those things.

That is what Randy did for me, so it is extremely difficult right now without him. This is the time I would pick up the phone and discuss what is going on in my life and he would give me positive reinforcement. I know that sounds like a child, but it is true. I really feel alone for the first time in my life.

It amazes me that I have no problem writing these things down on this site. I am extremely PRIVATE...but I do feel better after I type it out.

I really think this will pass....just last week I was happy so it must be hormones.

Ok....enough depressing stuff!

I was around all my nieces and nephews this weekend. They are 1 1/2, 2 1/2, 7 and 9.

The two oldest live in Roswell, NM. It was such a great joy to spend time with them. They are staying for two weeks with my parents and will come out to see me this weekend to go swimming.

It never crossed my mind that they would be unhappy about the baby...but the are! They did not say this to me but to their mother they expressed great concern that I would "Not be Fun" anymore because "Moms are not fun". ..lol..
Tyler, 7, even stated that I should not have the baby because I had him and that was enough. Poor things....

I figured Deanna, 2 1/2 , would not like it because right now I am "Her Shelby"! And she will not hesitate to let you know. :) That is the best feeling. She asks for me all the time and just comes running when she sees me. She is such a sweetheart.

I can't wait to have them all over this weekend at the pool. They will have so much fun. Monica, 9, asked if I could go swimming too and when told her yes she was SO excited.

I have never had children watch everything I do, but these kids sure do. It is amazing!

I am such a TV dork! I want BB3 to be on tonight so bad!! I have to wait one more day..URGH!

Well, at least I can watch The Mole II and American Idol..but it is just not the same.

Cool test I saw over at Camille's.

What Was Your PastLife?

Camille are you impressed that I was able to link something without asking for help????

I was pretty darn proud of myself!

:)

Ok...I have Staind playing now..listened to Default on the way in this morning...

I am ready to get to business and clear up my To Do List!

Ok...I have to vent a moment.

I have been having a great deal of pain since Monday in the area of my kidneys. I almost went to the hosiptal last night, but got through the pain.

When I called the Dr. this morning and we start talking she realizes I am not drinking enough water and still not eating enough. She wants me to drink 8 to 10 glasses of water a day!!! That is ALOT!!! She thinks the pains are coming from the fact that I am starting to grow(showing now) and my body is dehydrated. Due to the heat what water I do have in my system, I lose so there is nothing left. I drink about 1 glass a water a day...

This does make sense to me because I have REALLY lost my appetite and have begun to get nausas again.

Ok...back to the story at hand. The Dr. insists that I drink water and eat something this morning. Not hungry at all....eggs, bacon, sausage, toast..nothing sounds good. So, I go downstairs and purchase a package of PopTarts. I was desperate.

I go back up stairs ..toasting my little PopTarts in the toaster, and a co-worker comes in. (one that always eats healthy) She askes how I am doing and we chat for a minute. She then asks what I am going to eat and when I tell her she just makes this face of disappointment and disgust and says "SHELBY!!!". Like.."You should be eating healthy!!".

I have explained hyperemesis to this person many times! It does not matter what you eat as long as you eat!!! And that is exactly what I told her with a bit of attitude behind it!!!

Good gosh people...it is not like I am a hundred pounds!!! I have only gained 10 pounds and I am 6 1/2 months pregnant!!!

LEAVE MY FOOD ALONE!

Ok... feel better now.

My thoughts are with you and your family.

Cancer has spread - Sharon Osbourne.

Had a great weekend. A lot of energy and a lot of family.

My niece (9)and nephew (7) from Roswell, NM are down visitng my father and step-mother so they brought the kids over Saturday. My brother came over with my other nephew (1 1/2) and my brother and father re-arranged furniture and hung pictures for a couple of hours. Of course I just pointed and then changed my mind and changed it again and again...they were such GREAT SPORTS about it!! They did a wonderful job and I feel so much better now that things are in their place.

After all that my brother and I took the kids swimming downstairs for 2 hours or so. It was a blast!! Then we cooked out and the 9 and 7 year old got to spend the night with me. My parents went on home.

Sunday I took them to the movies and then we played basketball and then a little sight seeing. Met my parents half way between OK and TX and had a late lunch/early dinner. Ran errands on the way home..got in around 6:30..then around 8:00 decided to make peanut butter cookies from scratch.

What is up with me??/ I think the nesting stage in setting in early!!! ..lol..

I miss the kids already! They are so much fun. I hated that I could not do more..but I just get too tired. I usually take them to Six Flags or something really big and fun..just could not do that this year.

Well....with all that said....I had a GREAT weekend. It has been along time since I have made that statement. It feels pretty darn GOOD!!

:)

I was out yesterday...just not feeling well at all. Feel better today but my stomach is still bothering me.

I hope is stops soon...I was feeling really good there for awhile. Maybe I just wore myself out this past weekend..not sure.

Does anyone else watch this show?/ If so..who do you think the Mole is??

I thought Dorothy from the start, but they make her look to obvious. A friend thinks it is the older guy.

I don't think it is Heather, but do hope she wins..she is from Dallas you know. :)

It was a year ago today that my grandmother passed away. We were not close and I did not visit as much as I should have. I miss her. Even though she could be extremely rude to me at times, I wish I had gone to see her more often.

I think about her a great deal these days.

I love you Granner.

Saw this over at Camille's who saw it at Neuroti.ca.

Which Peanuts Character Are You Quiz

Borrowed from Reb.

1) Where were you born?
Dallas

2) If you still live there, where would you rather move to? If you don't live there, do you want to move? Why or Why not?
Still live here. I would love to move to New York. That was my plan before little Molly came along. You never know though...maybe one day we will go.

3) Where in the world do you feel the safest?
Anywhere as long as I am in the arms of a loved one

4) Do you feel you are well traveled?
Not at all! I mainly just travel back and forth from Tx and Las Vegas

5) Where is the most interesting place you have been?
Hard question. Have not been to many places. I guess New York. There is just so much to take in. Every street brings a new experience.

Went shopping again for maternity clothes again. I went with my friend from Ft. Worth. A little back ground, the family that drinks and is obsessed with weight. If you are not a size 4 or 6, then you are FAT!

Well, when I first met her I was a 4, but am not that anymore. The family has made no bones over the past 5 or 6 years that I have gained weight and am fat. ok, you get the picture..

Well, while shopping I am all concerned about looking too heavy. She is picking out all these clothes that are HUGE! You know that you would wear at 9 months. She was getting annoyed with me because I was not liking any of the clothes and I hate the pants with panels in the front. I kept saying "these shirts are too big..they make me look bigger than I am"...her response actually was.."so what it is ok to look big..your pregnant. It does not matter how big you look!" She just had a baby and was so SMALL!! She was wearing her size 4 to 6 ONE WEEK after the baby was born. And actually complained about how fat she was!!!

Now I can't believe she said that!! You just have to know this family...they make fun of anyone and everyone that is bigger than a 6. And you know as soon I leave the room they talk about how "big" I am.

I did buy a pair of shorts, jeans and khakis with a panel because they were so cheap on sale and a few of the big shirts(too cheap to pass). However, they will not be worn until my 9th month. The shirts come down to my mid-thigh!!! And she was like.."that looks good"..WHATEVER! It was just hanging on me!!!!

She thinks I am much bigger than I am obviously!! Oh....and she thought the GAP overall shorts I was wearing were maternity and when I told her no they were not she was shocked!! Ok, the more I think about it..the more annoyed I am getting.!!

I am just venting...I know she meant well. And I did purchase a great deal at a small price.

Ok this is hormones....and the fact that I am starting to gain weight now...so I really hate it! I know I will be 7 months in Friday..so maybe I should not complain...but I don't want to gain....URGH

Enough whining from me!

This morning once I pulled into the parking garage..I become sooooo hormonal!

Well, I walk in the building towards the first elevator. I push the button. Another women walks up behind me and waits. The light comes on above the middle elevator that I am standing in front of and the doors BEGIN to open. I continue to stand to allow other to GET OFF the elevator and this lady just rushed past me to get on the elevator. HOW RUDE!!!!!

Then we both get off on the same floor and walk to the same set of elevators. She walks slow, so she is not in a hurry She pushes the button...we wait...the light comes on above the elevator in front of me, the doors BEGIN to open and AGAIN she rushes past me!!

THIS IS SO RUDE! She ran into the people getting off the elevator both times!

I hate it when people do not know how to handle themselves in public.

I just had meeting...and was told to calm down. And yes..my response was "This is calm regardless of what you think."

Hormones + my personality = WATCH OUT!

Let you know if I still have job! :)

Yesterday I went and had my barbell belly piercing replaced with a plastic filament.

It looks pretty funny. They only had short ones(the size of my barbell) pre cut so she made one and then wrapped tiny rubber bands around each end. It is long enough for growth in my belly, but maybe too long.

Can't wait for Camille to see it...she will crack up!!!

I feel better about it though...I was worried about the barbell ripping my belly or causing problems.

You know...I have been kinda bitchy today but only to one person. I do not even really mean too...it just happens.

She must think I am completely nuts. Before I was pregnant..I WAS a total bitch to her ALL THE TIME. Then I come back after my two month leave and tell her that I am pregnant and have developed hyperemesis and tell her a little about my life. (just a little..) She is much nicer to me and I am a changed person with her..and now today...I am a bitch again. >LOL>

I have not been this way the entire day...just during certain conversations...I seem to be losing my patience. Too funny! She is handling it really well.

I will try to be nice. :)

Got this from Susan and just had to try it.

You are -1% geek

Boy, you really broke through the bottom on this one. You are SO not geek. I recommend staying away from conventions, computer stores, colleges, universities, or anywhere else people might display the slightest interest in something other than what's on TV at the present moment. Your mere presence among geeks of any degree is incredibly dangerous to the continued existence of the known universe. Here, I'll say it slow so you can understand: Anti-geek + Geek = Big Boom. Now go read a book, for god's sake.

Take the Polygeek Quiz at Thudfactor.com

Yes, Camille I know you are not surprised...now get up off the floor and wipe the tears from your eyes! :)