Getting Outside My Head

Ok, maybe I over did it a little. Could not make it to the office yesterday. Just plain felt like crap.

I feel much better today. Even had pizza for lunch. Everyone sat in amazement as I ate a piece of jalapeno pizza. It was GOOD!!! Pretty tired now though and need to go pick up a fresh supply of Zofran...my new best friend. Zofran is a drug that helps with the nausua...I think I will be afraid to get off the stuff. :biggrin

I have this "To Do List" running through my mind and I want to do all of them RIGHT NOW. I seem to have no patience. I know I have to take one day at a time, but it is really getting difficult.

I know it sounds like whinning....and if it is, sorry...because I think all the pain, discomfort and lack of patience will be worth it when I see my little baby.

Can you believe what I just typed.....my little baby.....

I am having a baby.:biggrin How great is that......more than words can say.

Have a great day everyone.

Its me, Camille. I just added a "Baby Data" section to the sidebar. Be sure to check in and see what's going on with the baby, and Shelby's pregnancy.

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I am still at the office. Came in at 10:00...I know that is not that long, but I have been tired since I got up! Now I will have to fight to stay up and watch ER. For those who know me I am a TV hound! I can't miss my shows!

I might get out of here around 6:00ish..but I am not holding my breathe.

Don't you just hate month end!

Ok...no more complaining for today...

I finally left the office Friday around 2:00. I had had enough! After getting ill at my desk and insisting that I did not feel good and had a pounding headache, I finally just left. I do not think my manager gets it yet. HG is not pleasant at times.

Felt much better Saturday and my wonderful friends Joshand Camille took me to Razoo's for lunch and then to see Spider-Man. It was a great day. I ate almost all the food I ordered. Fried pickles(shared be all), fried shrimp, french fries and spicy hush puppies. Yummmm Yummmm GOOD!!!!

The movie was great. I really enjoyed it and was glad to see it with friends.!!

I finally was worn out and had to go home. Thanks for a great day guys!

Spent yesterday on the couch all day. Can't wait to have energy for more than a day. :smile

Ya know, getting outside your head is not that easy. All I can think about is baby this and baby that, feeling better, moving, gaining weight, losing weight, me...me...me. Does it ever stop?

Went to Matito's for lunch today. Mexican food! It was wonderful! I am so ready for a nap.

I went with two women from the office, Tanya and Darleen. It was great to just chat and gossip with the girls. I did not know how much I missed it until today. Makes me feel like a normal person again.

But of course, we talked about me too and of course, it was me who brought me up. I crack myself up sometimes!!:lol

Well, I made it two full days this week but am heading out today around 12:30pm. Just too tired and too many pains.

I read one site that stated some women experience Braxton Hicks contractions around 14 to 18 weeks as the body gets ready for birth, well I think that is what has been going on with me the past few days. Two more a little while ago and I am ready to go home and get some rest.

Have a good day everyone.

I am sitting here sucking on a Preggie Pop that my great friend Camille purchased for me. They help with nausua and taste really good!

Thanks !!

By the way...they are lollie pops!

Preggie Pops are good! They are sour flavors like rasberry, tangerine and lemon.

Scott, if I gave you one you would have no idea it was to help with nausua!! So there!:lol

I love that show. I have a question though, last night was the season finale and it showed Agent Vaughn drowning. Now the question is...has anyone heard that he was leaving the show?? I would think not and really hope not because is just too hot.

I am thinking that the mother saves him because she knows how Sydney feels. What do you think?

Also, who do you think drinks the poison?

I may be the only adult still watching Roswell and I know what that says about me, but I will still miss the show.

Since its move to UPN it has really been lacking. The scripts have been so bad that I have been embarrassed for the writers. I wish the WB would have kept the series one more season.

At least this is one less teen show that I watch while others can make fun of me.

So, do not call me tonight! I will be watching. :smile

Well, I really enjoyed the finale last night. I even cried when I thought they were going to kill off the characters. I was glad they did not go that direction. It was a nice happy ending.

It was a good show and that Max is just plain sexy!

I take Zofran to help with the nausua cause by HG and the pregnancy. I ran out and did not take it for a few days. I had more energy but was having trouble eating food and keeping it down.

Well, I got my prescription re-filled. The Zofran REALLY keeps me tired and dragging. I guess I have been on it so long(12 weeks) that I did not realize how sluggish is makes me. It helps SO much with the nausua though so I do need it.

I am really tired again today, but have been able to eat better. I think it is best that I eat and just work less hours and rest. Frustrating, but true.

Well, it looks like I am heading back to suburbia again. I am moving from downtown Dallas to Las Colinas(Irving).

I found a two bedroom town home for me and the baby. (How cute does that sound!) Camille and I both really like it. Great location. My friends with kids are about 20 to 30 mins away and my single friends are about the same distance. Now the drive to work will not be fun, but it will be worth it.

There is a great park across the street. Activities for all ages, walk paths, a pond, basket ball court and picnic tables. It is really pretty.

I can't wait to start on the baby's room. I am allowed to paint so I have to decide if I am going to do that or not. I think I will. Have to chat with Camille first. These days...I do not do anything without her approval. :lol I am sure she never thought she would be married to two people let alone another female! Sorry Josh you have to share right now! Thanks for being a good sport.

I move on June 15th. I can't wait!!

Ok, I am starting to be a regular at Las Colinas Medical Center's ER. The nurse knows me now. I did not even have to fill out paperwork this time.

I ended up back in the hopital last Wednesday night. Turned out to be a kidney infection. Only had to stay one night(probably should have been two but I have awful insurance). Doing much better now.

My nurse, Lane, is great. I think I will have to send her a Thank You card. She stayed past her shift to make sure I was going to be ok and then stayed and talked to me for about 30 or 40 mins until I calmed down. She is a great nurse!

Congrats to the Real World team for winning the big game!!! $300,000 dollars!!!!

I was excited! They had the best team work ethic throughtout the entire challenge and it paid off in the end!

I have had two dreams about my unborn child. The first was early on and I dreamt the baby was a girl. The second was last week and I dreamt the baby was a boy. Well, next week my doctor has scheduled a high risk sonogram for Thursday at 3:00pm. This sonogram enables the doctor to see everything in great detail so they will be able to tell me if the baby is a boy or girl.

Ok, growing up I ALWAYS said I would NOT want to know the sex of the baby until birth. Then when I found out I was pregnant, I could not wait to find out. Now, I am not sure. I want to know...but I do not want to know. All I want is a healthy baby.

I am scared. I know that sounds silly, but I am one of those half empty kinda girls. If I know the sex and place a name...I am afraid something will go wrong. I know sounds pretty stupid.

I am sure though, while on the table with Camille at my side, I will want to know the sex of the baby. I am sure I will be so excited. I just stress WAY too much.

Is it a boy or girl? I will have the answer Thursday.

Ok, I have to vent.

I live in lofts in downtown Dallas. Now these lofts are the first lofts that I have lived in that have extremely thin walls. Each loft is different in square footage and shape with high ceilings and concrete floors. Due to the high ceilings and concrete floors all sound bounces off each surface and is much louder farther away than close up. So you can be in your loft next to the TV and not hear it well, but when you go the back of the loft it is very loud and clear. The other problem with this building is that the doors are heavy and will automatically close behind you. Even though I know it will close on its own I grab the door to ensure it closes quietly. Others just let the darn thing slam and it shakes the wall all the way down the hall.

WELL.....a new tentant has moved in next door to me. She appears to be in her mid to late 30s. This must be the first loft she has ever lived in because she just does not have the rules down yet. The thing that gets me the most is that she listens to BRITTNAY SPEARS!!!! She is just way too old for that...ok..you can listen just don't advertise it. She should be embarrassed! She listens to this pop crap music at an extremely high level!! Most of the time the music is so loud that I can not even hear my OWN tv. Once I called my friend and she could hear the music through the wall over the phone. Now that is LOUD!

Last night at 9:00 she decides to turn up the volume again. I know that is still early but with all my ailments these days I go to bed early sometimes. Now, I have no idea where she gets the mix of music she listens to. I can only think it is one of those NOW 9 cds or something. The cds that have a mix of pop music. The first song was total techno, the next was hip-hop, then coffee-shop rock and lastly my favorite Brittany Spears! The best part, she starts singing along with the Brittany song. No, she can not sing either. Now that was 9:00pm till around 10:30 and then she left. She got home around mid-night and listened to one or two songs and then off to bed. Many mornings I wake up to good ol Brittany instead of my alarm clock! The past two mornings have not been bad though, she was probably just hung over and could not deal with loud music.

She also insists on wearing slip on shoes. The kinds that clip clop everytime you step. Ok, on concrete that can be VERY annoying. She walks back and forth, back and forth, sometimes she dances to the music and then at the end... the grand finale....she slings them off her feet across the floor hitting a wall. Usually my wall. HOW OLD DOES THIS CHICK THINK SHE IS???

And of course, she lets the door slam closed everytime. She comes and goes a great deal. Not sure what she is doing, but once she gets home she is in and out of that door at least 5 or 6 times.

The part I love the most is that she keeps trying to meet people in the building and nobody will really talk to her. The others on my floor I am sure are tired of her noise and can not stand her music and slamming of the door.

I am counting the days till I move.

I mean really....BRITTANY SPEARS at a high VOLUME!!! Come on!!

I am 31. That is not old, so I thought.

I am one that usually gets carded in Vegas or at the bar or the liquer store. Lately however, this has not been the case. I have been called Ms. twice over the past two weeks.

Well this takes the cake. I was at Target Sunday morning, hair pulled back and light make-up, when I had this wonderful conversation with the 16 or 17 year old cashier. (Sorry kinda long)

Cashier- "Ummm...Do you regret tattoos when you get old?"

Me- "Well, it depends. ..........If you planned out your tattoo and had it done when you were sober and old enough to know it is what you really want and not a passing fad, then no." "But everyone is different."

Cashier- "So, when you are old it is still cool?"

Me- "I am only 31 and did not think that was all that old, but again it depends on the person." "It may also depend where you get it as well"

Cashier- "Oh, I did not mean that you were old"........"uh...uh..."

Me- "I have one on my ankle that I had planned out and had done when I was in my mid to late 20s." "The other is on my back that I had planned and had done last year." "Now, be carefull where you place the tattoo because you will forget it is there, but everyone else will be sure to point it out."

Cashier- "Well, I had it put on my back and forget about it all the time."

Me- "Just remember when wearing backless dresses that it will show"

Cashier- "Oh....well it is kinda big"

She then pulls her shirt down past her right shoulder blade exposing a rather large heart tattoo with flowers around the lining of the heart and her name in the middle

Cashier- "Will I regret this one?"

Me- "It is too late now. In the future if you want another maybe think about it a little longer." "I understand it is extremely painful and exspensive to remove"

Cashier- " Yeah, that is what my mother said." "She is not happy about this one at all"

Ok, I must tell you that at NO time could this cahsier see my tattoos. She brought the conversation up to me because she thought I was OLD!!!!!

It bothered me all day...then I started thinking...at 16 or 17....30 was old to me too.

I am so tired today. Not really sure why. I am having a hard time keeping my eyes open. My body just aches.

I think I need caffine. I am doing really good with trying to stay away from caffine due to the pregnancy. I may have one glass of caffine tea a day but that is just a maybe.

I think I will eat and have a glass of tea, that should do it!

A friend was telling me this story over the weekend and I was horrified!

She was listen to a local radio station that had a couple in their early 20s that had their 3 year old child tattooed!

Both the wife and husband had several tatts and thought they were cool and since they thought it was cool they just knew their daughter would think the same thing. They held the child down while a friend of theirs did the work.

I can not believe this! I am completely outraged. How could someone sit and watch their child in pain let alone hold them down for the process. When the DJ asked about this the couples response was that "of course she was in pain, but children get over the pain quickly and forget about it". She continued by stating it was really not a big deal and when the DJ compared it to child abuse the couple got extremely offended.

Can you believe that? A 3 year old child.

Well, the high risk doctor my OB doctor scheduled me to see is not on my insurance plan. They just called today and told me I would have to pay up to $1000 at the time of appt. SO........ that appt had to be cancelled.

My new appt is next Friday, June 7th. This doctor IS on my plan so no money out of my pocket. Sounds better I think.

Is it a boy or girl? Find out on the 7th!

Ok my hormones are raging today.

Howard Stern just went off the air so I switched over to music. I am listening and singing along while I work. I am extremely agitated over the work that was not done while I was on leave but at the same time these songs are bringing tears to my eyes. Happy and sad tears.

I seem to be all about music the past couple of weeks. Only wanting to listen to certain artists and songs. I was all over Van Morrison this past weekend. I have not listened to him in YEARS. I played 'Mystic' over and over.

Hormones are too funny!!!:lol

Stuttering John beat Crazy Cabby. DANG! It was a boxing match on the Howard Stern show this morning.

I can not stand John. Double Dang!!!!

I am finding it EXTREMELY difficult to focus on work. I keep looking for other things to do or read. I have been to all my usual websites and have done some more reading on single parents and pregnancy information.

I feel so anxious, but not sure about what. I think I am stressing. I was really hoping to get that sonogram over with yesterday to get my mind a ease. What if I do have full blown out placenta previa...that might mean more bed rest..which means no paycheck. Single parent+no paycheck= BAD NEWS.

Ok....stop stressing! So, is this page my little diary...I think so at times.

On a brighter note, I am going to the Ranger baseball game tomorrow. It will be a new experience since I can not drink. I sure I will still have fun though..it will get me out of the house. And Camille is coming over Sunday to help me pack for the big move on the 15th. It will be good to have company and someone to get my butt in gear.

Well off to a meeting! Have a good day. :smile